I suppose this is a bit of a follow on from my previous post Changes. I find myself wondering, if people do change, people can change, is there a limit on how they can change? Is there some sort of range of
how a person can be that they move along? Or are we truely free to be who we want to be? Can a person that can barely hold a paint brush become a renowned artist, a person who is completely tone-deaf become a world famous musician? Or
is it more likely that while a person may change, they are fundamentally the same person, with the same limitations, same weaknesses, same failings as they always had?
As with my previous post, I suppose my reasons for thinking this stem from what can at times be a fairly large gap between how others seem to see me and how I view myself. An example that has come up quite a few times both in real life
and on the internet is the idea of me having a relationship with someone. The people I talk to seem to think I possess quite a few qualities that in one way or another mean that I would make a good partner, however I personally cannot
see how any person would be able to put up with me hours a day, every day, for the rest of their lives; Hell I can barely put up with me for that amount of time and I can put up with a lot from people. Yet I still find myself wishing I
did have someone special in my life, I know that the odds of this happening are remote at best and that the odds of them staying with me would be even less, but the fact that other people see it as more likely makes me wonder, is it
possible that I could actually change enough to make such a thing more likely? Again I find it unlikely and personally I think the problem is the uncertainty inherent in the statement. If I knew for sure that it was or was not going to
happen then I could move on with my life, either in the knowledge that one day I will find someone, or accept the fact that I never will and move on.
Those of you that read my old blog on MySpace might remember the box of stuff my ex-finacee gave me when we were together, the box that has been sealed for years now. It was originally stored in the attic but we had to move some stuff
around so it ended up in my room, which is of course a *perfect* place to keep it so I see it every day [/sarcasm] I've been wondering lately if I should open it, sort through it, throw out the bits not worth keeping and maybe sell or
keep the bits that are worth something. I could certainly do with the extra storage space and I have no real reason to keep most of what's in there, to be honest I've forgotten most of what's in the box and yet I still can't quite bring
myself to do it. Maybe one day that will be another change? Maybe one day I'll be able to do it? Who knows? Maybe it'll be linked to the thoughts above? Maybe once I've found that 'special someone' I'll "let go of the past"? Who knows?
IRC Quote of the day
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Announcing todays bronze trophy.....Nici/Cyphon for 'snuggletastic'- Cyphons first bronze trophy :o
Announcing todays silver trophy.....Napoleon/Rulesaints/nici/Beth (A.K.A. Vlad) for 'alcohol drip' - Napoleons first entry into the competition :o
But todays gold trophy goes to.....Kingslayer/Werewolf/CptGodZilla/Beth (A.K.A. Vlad) for 'awkward' - first time entries for Werewolf, Zilla and Kingslayer
Congratuations to all our contenders, the top 3 QoTD winners are now:
1st Place: Vladisvok with 15 points across 6 showings - up 5 points, 2 showings and 2 places since last time
2nd Place: Cyphon with 14 points across 6 showings - up 1 point, 1 showing and still holding 2nd place
3rd Place: Vesta with 14 points across 7 showings - Down 2 places since last time and no new showings
Quote of the day
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Todays QoTD is brought to you by Avon and Tarrent from Blake's 7:
Tarrant: Where are we going, Avon?
Avon: Profound philosophical questions never really interested me.
Tarrant: That's not up to your usual standard.
Avon: Yes. Well, I'm tired.
On a final note, we have a shoutout to my boss who I gave the url of this website to on Friday, so she might be reading this *waves* hope you've enjoyed another round of..."Vlad's Musings!!!"
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